Start all over

Anticipating for a new start all over again.
I fell and now i am going to pick myself up again.
Alot of things are to be cleared in my mind.
I am stronger than that.. I believe i can make it through..

Worried sick for my result but i know what's done is done.
Not gonna run away from fact. I will face it strong.
Day is always there after night.

Sorted my heart. I'm gonna make my stand. I need a new environment to grow.
I cant afford to lose the most important person in my life.
He is always and always the reason i stayed.

Awful,awful feeling needs to end. Guilt and fear need to subside.
2yrs of nightmare is long enough to torture.
No more no more. Got to say no to things i don't want.

Realisation

Realised there's still more about me:)
Rejective words is something i never like to use.
Good and bad. It brings me lots of opportunities! no doubt.
Excepts it also caught me stuck in lots of stituation i don't like.
I am a 'S' person. Yes! This totally means i am a yes man.
Not sure when it happens. But i have changed from IC to IS. Never a D i realised.
hahaha....

Flickle Minded

VS

Got Iphone4 today, but wasn't contented.
Doesn't like the phone actually. hmmm.......
Bought it probably because most of my friends are using.
Saw my idea phone x5-01 :)
So beautiful! But lack of courage to get that just now.
This is just so me. Never trusted on my own decision.
I have this weird mentality that people are always right! People's view are always best!
hahah...
I guess Erikson is right! I didn't develop well in that area:)
Thanks to Mum n Dad!
Probably that's why i need God in my life :)

Fell in love

Falling in love with things that not supposed.... Good , Bad cant be measured but definately mess up!

Hearing voices of my heart

These words were spoken years ago. But it only started ringing at my heart today.
Never knew that, "that" was real, only until today. :)
To all stubborn people out there:
"no harm giving it a try, you aren't always right even though it really seems to. "

Mundane

School, Work and church...

Family, Friends and me.....

Stress, fun and influence......

New ME

That's It~

Fear

Fear does gripped me this time.
Uncertainty stresses the fine vein of mine.
How? Is the question I definitely will know.
But it just cant stop prompting my heart.
"O God! Would mercy comes again this time?"
I cried out, knowing no matter what HE will.
Because of LOVE.

New alway surpasses the past

Looking back at some of the old blogs, made me felt pinched. Things just changes so rapidly with time. The people, the situation and the feel are all different now. As the new surpasses the past. Many of the old have been replaced with the new. Changes wouldn't show mercy in life. Regrets wouldn't stop the feet of changes.

No point regretting the past. Just remember to make sure you are good friend with change when it comes back the next time.

I am alone but not

I am alone now but i know i am not.
there is a peace kind of feeling that is dwelling in me.
I know that's because of Him.
I made a most stupid mistake ever in class today.
In fact things wasn't going that smooth for me
but i dono why i just feel very very secure
suprisingly not anxious about my lit review.
Wasn't affect by the bad news either.
hmmm.... weird...
but this is how prayer works!
I learn to stretcched my prayer time again
and things really change, couldn't be better.
The boldness in me just overwhelm
Thank God

Waiting

Waiting for my student now. Feeling bored!
Anyway felt so great to complete some of my works:
Health Psy PPT - cleared
Statistic MT- Cleared
Brain and behavior MT- Cleared

Now left with:
Health Psy LR
Statistic R
Brain and behavior R
Learning and behavior R
Final Exam

I got a feeling I wont be able to meet my student in any way hahaha
faint!!!!!!

A different me in this different year!

A different me in this different year!

Not sure why, but i do felt that I am different.
Started to fall in love with reading story books.:)
Is this a season?
Indeed is true people with great vision will definately face circumstance that will stumble their dreams.
Knowing that is never easy, but still i trust in Him.
I really got no idea how? But definately not giving up until the last!
Phew! God take over! Take further!
Like i said(before somewhere), this is the time i needed God most. Couldn't do without.

Happy New Year!

I am now living in 2010.
This will be my 21st year on earth.
Need to do some self- checking.
What have I achieved after all these years?

Studies?
Completed my
-PSLE in 2001 with the result of 205
-O'level in 2005 with the result of L1R5 21pt
-Diploma in MIT in 2009 with GPA 2.5
-Advanced diploma in SOT in 2009 overall A and 34 credits

Currently conquering
-Degree/Master in Psych

Hmmm from the statistic can see that I am really a average student in adcademic.
My best result was studying theology! 10 A, 1B, 1C
Hmm What to say? Though the knowlegde taught was really good! But i guess i just had more interest in my Heavenly Father Business than the rest!

hmm not bad an acheievment in study i guess? I am not that kind of a top student but at least i gotten all i needed to get and i am in Uni now! James Cook University is a treasure found. Those that went OBS will know hahaha....

Career?
What have i did?
- 1st job with cooperate company is in my 17, work as admin ast @ SMRT in the year 2007 earning i think 6.5 per hour
(all thanks to KRISTY!)

-2nd job with cooperate company is my 20 intern with Philips int he year 2009 earning only 500 per monthin i think.
( all thanks to NYP..hahaha)

-3rd job reliefing in Northlight School in my 20 earning $65 per day.

Tuition is a job that i have took up since 2007
-1 st tuition was when i am 17, pay was really lousy only have 65 per month for 1 student
( if i am not wrong that is about $8 per hr.)

-2nd tuition had a sightly higher rate about $10 per hr

-3rd tuition came only when i am 18 that is much better 250 per month
(but because of the frequency is about $13 per hr)

-Subsequent tuition case was then a breakthrough for me

I guess this will help to contrast my income rises more:
17 yr Old -highest income $65 per month / $8 per hour
18 yr Old- highest income $315 per month / avg $9 per hour
19 yr old- highest income $365 per month / avg $12 per hour
20 yr Old- highest income $2000 per month / avg $30 per hour

All thanks to God! If not for Him I wouldn't had such a great breakthrough.
I am a full time undergrade.
I am devoted Christian. (attending church and serving God every week faithfully )
I am in JCU music band ( guitarsit- weekly practise tgt for ocasion performance)
I had weekly family gathering for both Dad and Mum.
At the same time I am earning good:)
Many people says balance is the key.
But i would say God is the one that made balance our key!

I never doubted on what God can do in me. Because i have tasted His goodness and grace in my life. Old saying in church says : one touch from heaven and you will never be the same.
I had mine have you?
I shared the same sorrow , struggles and weakness most people had. I did broke down many times due to the stress and burden that is upon me. But each time i fall i know i am falling on good hands. My God have supported me through i am not ashame to share, because He really did. Thank you Father! I love you !
I am setting my feet on your foot step in 2010 no regrets!

Now this is my 21st year!
I am targetting
1) more insight and revelation to get me closer with God
2) being better testimony
3) CG growth 30
4) Dist for all subjects
5) giving another 100 more to parents
6) earning 2500 per month.
7) 2 Mission trips in 2010
8) Integrate 10 personal friends in CG

Is is Good to start your year with targets so that you can plan way before to succeed!
I had bought 1 table organiser, 1 book organiser and 2 calendars what a way to start my year hahah!